Something I learned about myself

I am very aware that there are things I suck at. 

When people tell me I suck at the things I suck at, I don't tell them "I know" because I don't want to come off as arrogant/full of myself. 

I try to be polite, I take their feedback, and remind myself to work on it, and say OK. 

But some things I make really slow progress on.

So when I am reminded multiple times that I suck at something, or a problem is made out of something I'm trying really hard to improve on that I am aware is a problem, but I'm 99% perfect in every other way and it's just a small imperfect detail that is difficult for me to work on that I am trying to work on, I take it really personally. 

It takes a lot to drive me to that point, but I've had it happen to me a couple of times in the past week or two. It's sobering.

Popular posts from this blog

AED's StepManiaX Stage Sensitivity Tuning Guide

Image
INTRODUCTION  Hi there! My name is Aedan. I have been playing dance games since September 2021. After a lot of trial and error over the past four years on my own StepManiaX hardware, I'm very satisfied with how I adjust sensitivity on my own panels. There are a lot of StepManiaX arcade machines in public now, and the pads are pretty great for an enjoyable gameplay experience out of the box without any special setup necessary.   Sometimes, a machine might come with irregularly under-sensitive panels from the factory-- like holds dropping with a player's entire weight on the panel levels of under-sensitivity. This short guide is to show you how to adjust the sensitivity of your panels so that you do not have any problems with actuating the panels, but without compromising the release of said panels. It's important to not make them too over-sensitive, otherwise consistency in techniques such as jacking, footswitching, and even simple things like drills can get compromised. S...
Read more

Nike Mercurial Vapor Academy Indoor Court

Image
THESE SHOES ARE CRACKED. This is my new main shoe!! https://www.nike.com/t/mercurial-vapor-16-academy-indoor-court-low-top-soccer-shoes-Tjvo3RuC/FQ8434-001  Crazy story: I bought these like 3 years ago (the 15's), thought they were too tight and returned them after 2 days because I didn't understand I needed to give them like a week's worth of sessions to break in the fit.  Since then I've grown to like shoes that are really tight on my feet, for the reason that they make lifting my feet feel much more instantaneous for fine heel and toe muscle control.  I am frustrated with a lot of the options out on the market for minimalist footwear, because I don't have wide feet. I have regular standard width feet. The toeboxes on a lot of minimalist shoes are wide, so there's all this loose space in the front of the shoe that makes me feel like I'm dragging around dead weight/the shoes feel like clown shoes in the toe area even if I size down.  I dig the vibra...
Read more

AED's StepManiaX Shoe Reviews

Image
I have bought a lot of shoes to figure out what the "optimal" shoe is for StepManiaX for the way that I play. Shoes may vary on other dance pads due to metal center/brackets/corners, people putting down baby powder, etc. When discussing each pair of shoes I have bought, there are 5 factors that I weigh. I weigh them 1 to 5 (strongly dislike to strongly like). Weight - 1 is heavy, 5 is light Grip - 1 is slippery, 5 is gorilla grip Bounce - 1 is destroy your knees, 5 is moon shoes Sound - 1 is not satisfying, 5 is crisp and satisfying Fit - 1 is loose/uncomfy, 5 is tight/comfy Add all scores up for an overall rating out of 25. Crocs LiteRide Pacer Info 4/5    Weight (low 200g) 1/5    Grip 3/5    Bounce 3/5    Sound 5/5    Fit 15/25  Overall Critique Weight is below standard. Grip is absolutely atrocious. Any amount of dust/debris buildup and you are sliding like crazy. Bounce & shock absorbency is servicea...
Read more